Im trying to see if thia ipod touch application, iBlogger, would be of great help with my blogging. I downloaded it through Installous. Hopefulyy through this application I could update my blog more often.
Well, im off to bed. Testing!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
No Regrets My Ass
As much as I want to imbibe the phrase, "No regrets," I just can't. There are just certain things in the past that I wish I could have done or have done in a different way.
But when I put my thoughts into it, I realize that there's no way I could have known that I would regret NOW what I have done in the past.
For example, taking up a degree in bachelor of nursing. I've wanted to be a nurse since, I think, kinder A. I even remember my classmates laughing at me because back then nursing is for girls. Haha. So what's the problem? Well now, I think it's really not for me. Academics, no problem with that, but I just think I would NOT be happy with this kind of career in the long run.
My original plan was to finish nursing and work for at least 5 years to save enough money for taking up culinary arts. I'm still trying to stick up to the plan, but I'm at the point where my anxiety's really because of the upcoming exams I have to take and I don't really have the confidence if I could survive them all. I know I sound like a BIG, BIG QUITTER, but I think this is just the way how I cope up with all this stress (and perhaps eating a lot, too).
I actually think this is one of the reasons why most of the time I'm agitated whenever my mom gives me her "I expect you to be on top" dialogues. Haha. I'm trying to focus to pass the exam, and yet here's the additional pressure that is not helping at all to make me overcome this crap. Weeh.
I really, really hope I could just shrug off these feelings and focus more on studying. I promise I will try my best to my stick to my original plan! Nursing today, culinary arts tomorrow! haha. October 11, I would be graduating. November 29 & 30, I would be taking the Nursing Licensure Exam! Haha. I can do this!
But when I put my thoughts into it, I realize that there's no way I could have known that I would regret NOW what I have done in the past.
For example, taking up a degree in bachelor of nursing. I've wanted to be a nurse since, I think, kinder A. I even remember my classmates laughing at me because back then nursing is for girls. Haha. So what's the problem? Well now, I think it's really not for me. Academics, no problem with that, but I just think I would NOT be happy with this kind of career in the long run.
My original plan was to finish nursing and work for at least 5 years to save enough money for taking up culinary arts. I'm still trying to stick up to the plan, but I'm at the point where my anxiety's really because of the upcoming exams I have to take and I don't really have the confidence if I could survive them all. I know I sound like a BIG, BIG QUITTER, but I think this is just the way how I cope up with all this stress (and perhaps eating a lot, too).
I actually think this is one of the reasons why most of the time I'm agitated whenever my mom gives me her "I expect you to be on top" dialogues. Haha. I'm trying to focus to pass the exam, and yet here's the additional pressure that is not helping at all to make me overcome this crap. Weeh.
I really, really hope I could just shrug off these feelings and focus more on studying. I promise I will try my best to my stick to my original plan! Nursing today, culinary arts tomorrow! haha. October 11, I would be graduating. November 29 & 30, I would be taking the Nursing Licensure Exam! Haha. I can do this!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Internal Conflict
Days and nights have passed by, and it has drawn closer and closer. It can't be stopped, nor slowed. There's no escape.
It's like standing in an arena full of blood-thirsty audience, waiting for the hungry lion to devour me whole.
A mighty warrior, I have become, with a great sword in hand and a mighty shield on the other. I know how to win this battle, for years of training in swordsmanship has prepared me for this day.
As the lion circles around me, picturing me as his next meal, I was running through tactics and strategies how to kill my predator. I am a man and the thing that stands before me is just an animal. I will win.
The mighty cat bent down, clawing its nails down to the ground as if preparing to attack. It is time. There's no turning back.
The sun's rays got to my eyes. I blinked, and by the time I opened my eyes I was covered by the shadow of the lion above me. I could have lifted my sword and pierced the animal through his guts; I could have bent down and chugged him with my shield... but I froze.
It's like standing in an arena full of blood-thirsty audience, waiting for the hungry lion to devour me whole.
A mighty warrior, I have become, with a great sword in hand and a mighty shield on the other. I know how to win this battle, for years of training in swordsmanship has prepared me for this day.
As the lion circles around me, picturing me as his next meal, I was running through tactics and strategies how to kill my predator. I am a man and the thing that stands before me is just an animal. I will win.
The mighty cat bent down, clawing its nails down to the ground as if preparing to attack. It is time. There's no turning back.
The sun's rays got to my eyes. I blinked, and by the time I opened my eyes I was covered by the shadow of the lion above me. I could have lifted my sword and pierced the animal through his guts; I could have bent down and chugged him with my shield... but I froze.
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